daily life, statesDecember 29, 2008 6:29 pm

This Christmas was beautiful.  I was able to spend time with my grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins.  My dad and his four other brothers and sisters gathered around my petite grandma for a group shot.  Seeing the way they dote on her, support her and give her their love and devotion is a humbling and touching thing.  Next year she will be 90 years old and I believe that the love that surrounds her has been a huge part of why she has made it this far and looks so much younger.  At that moment a feeling of boundless gratitude filled me to be part of such a loving family.  I am so blessed that I have such caring souls who have showed me what it is to really love. 

Later my dad showed me a slide show he was making for my mom’s dad who is also turning 90 next year.  The slide show went through my grandpa’s life and showed my mom from toddler to mother and it was another moment where my heart was in my throat and I was deeply filled with love for my family.  I’ve been struck again and again during this Christmas break how important family is.  I’ve always known my family is such an integral part of who I am but I have a greater appreciation for them now.  I pray that with the closing of this year and the bringing of the next, I would hold onto that thought.

statesDecember 25, 2008 1:30 am

Though it doesn’t feel like it’s already here, Merry Christmas to all!

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daily life, statesDecember 5, 2008 11:32 pm
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
 
-Jeremiah 29:11
 
This is such a powerful verse to me.   I rely on my plans and lists, perhaps too much.  They keep me focused and aware of what’s ahead for me.  But when all my hopes and dreams are resting on those plans coming to fruition, and they fall through. . .well, that’s an awful feeling.  I’ve tried to "roll with the punches" and "go with the flow" but it’s certainly an area of growth for me.  I just have to remind myself that God’s plans are so much great than mine; He wants the absolute best for me and knows how to get me there.  My hope is not in my plans, but in the Creator who dreamed me into existence, the One who knows all my flaws and catches all my tears.  In the midst of all my fears of the future and whether things will work out the way they’re "supposed" to, I need to keep the above verse in mind, that my Father wants me to prosper despite myself.