Hello
Old "friend"
I remember you
This dull ache
The shattering of
My heart
It hasn’t been long
Since we last met
Must you visit so often?
And stay so long?
Next time
Do us both a favor
And pass me by




My hopes and dreams take flight
I’m soaring
Nothing can touch me
I’m free


Going through an old notebook that I carried with me in Japan I found these poems in random spaces. They’re not my favorite ever but I didn’t want to lose them in the shuffle of moving stuff around. Yesh…
March 22, 2007
Burn the edges of my heart
Drown the sorrow ’till it’s numb
Ignite the flame when it’s time
No feeling…senseless
Guarding me from pain
lock it away
Deep inside
Where no one can see it
Time to say goodbye
And my heart shatters again
I could cry, but what good would it do?
It wouldn’t take away the pain
let’s raise a glass to heartache
* * * * * * * * * *
March 23, 2007
And if I told You that "the sun won’t rise tomorrow
We’ll soon be underwater
Oxygen won’t give us life
the flame won’t burn
and my heart has died"
would you believe me?
What if I told you that
My love has flown away,
I’m hollow; empty; Numb
Goodbye
* * * * * * * * * *
April 21, 2007
Stupid desire
Something so beautiful
How can it become so vile?
Take this heart of mine
Silence the voice
Home soon
Trouble follows
Sunsets? I love stopping on the side of the road and taking pictures of sunsets. This is one of many taken today on the way to school.

Sometimes my God makes my heart sing…
This is what my rear windshield looked like on my way to school last night. Rain swept across the freeway and since my back windshield doesn’t have a wiper, I couldn’t see anything but vague blurs of light when looking through it. It was really scary when I had to merge into another lane. But God is good and He kept me safe as I drove. Granted I arrived 10 minutes late to class but even then I made it to class right when the teacher asked if anyone’s name hadn’t been called. I guess I wasn’t really late then. w00t for answered prayers. And happy February, everyone.



Another oldie but goodie (in my opinion, anyway). This was written on April 7, 2005 during a very boring Chemistry class (wait, that’s kind of redudent…anyway):
Sweet desire
Tired pages
Frayed edges
Scattered thoughts
Wanting freedom
Dying inside
Slowly dying
Love lost
And found
Your lips
Against mine
Kiss me,
You fool
When the one thing I’m thinking
Is the one thing I want to forget
…
Time waits for no one
It marches on
Regardless of what
It’s marching towards
Sleep is a false escape
Nowhere can I run
One day it will come for me
Here’s hoping
That I’ll stand strong
And not shatter
Under pressure
I’m not a pansy
After all
I’m rarely hit with the inspiration to write poetry. These four poems are from at least 2 years ago and I’m still proud of them.
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Eyes unseeing
Ears not hearing
I feel so dead
In this shell of mine
Hollow, empty
Please come save me
You say you’ll help
But I’ll be fine
You try to catch me
Hold my hand
But my eyes are closed
And I’m gone again
I’m slowly fading
I’ll soon be gone
My eyes are closing
Goodbye, the end
_______________
[Fly]
I’m running from myself
Hiding from my pain
Hoping that I’ll win
And in the end I’ll gain
Lose myself forever
Never to return
Captivate my sorrow
May my soul not burn
My time is almost up
The wick is running low
I’ll spread my wings to fly
And up my spirit shall go
___________________
[Up]
Draw me close
Let me go
Keep me young
Help me grow
Give me freedom
Not too much
On my own
But still your touch
This world: so large
And me so small
In your embrace
I conquer all
Mommy’s sugar
Daddy’s tea
Your little girl
I’ll always be
___________________
[Duet]
We sit in silence
Our heartbeats speaking
A language we cannot comprehend
But we understand each other
From my brokenness
You found beauty
From my sorrow
You found joy
Now, as I sing to the heavens
I can smile because I know
You are looking down on me
And singing as well
My heart hurts. I cried (and am crying) today because I miss her so much. She’s growing up without me. And I ache.
Just a few pictures of my precious girl:










